Fish Tales

SO TODAY I AM MAKING ICE CREAM WITH THE KIDDOS AND HOPEFULLY IT WILL BE A GOOD EXPERIENCE. AS SOME OF YOU MAY KNOW I WORK WITH CHILDREN A T A FAMILY SHELTER SO ALTHOUGH I DO NOT HAVE ANY OF MY OWN I HAVE ADOPTED 24 OF MY OWN TEENAGERS...AND I LOVE'EM.

STAY TUNED TO WHAT ADVENTURES WE WILL DO TOMORROW..........

P.S. I LOVE ICE CREAM MORE THAN EATING FOOD SO HOPEFULLY I WILL ACTUALLY LET THEM EAT SOME OF IT.......HA HA HA:-)

Ok. so apparently I have had these four albums on repeat in my car as well as in the office, and they have kept me sane for the past 3 weeks now. Not sure if it is because I am going through unneeded drama or if its since I have reverted to going back into a shell of myself, but they are AMAZING albums to say the least.

Not a long blog today for there is more to conquer in this building they tend to call work..so until next time listen to the music and see if it does the same for you.

Ok so I haven't been blogging as much as I anticipated on doing when i first started out, but i find it more interesting to reaad the lives of other people and vicariously live through them for the time being....weird I know, but let me explain.
When I first started this page it was to keep as a journal entry and let all my feelings be released for others to read and maybe comment on how they are feeling as well or to give some sort of criticism as to how I could handle situations a little better. yet upon reading certain pages I began to see that people were rarely complaining, but actually writing about the good times they have had or are having in theri lives or how much joy it is to be a parent to wonderful children, And thats when it hit me that i think im ready for a child.
Majority of the blogs I read are written by either parents or couples married and plan on having children in the future. Not to say this saddens me or make me despise all happily married couples, but it makes me realize that maybe I am long overdue for having "the conversation" with my significant other about getting hitched and planning a family.
Who knows maybe I'll be writing about my little bundle of joy in the year to come or just have some pictures of my own life experiences of waking up to the "potty song" or a wailing baby instead of an alarm clock :-)

So I flicked on the television this morning to discover a discussion on channel 11 news about having an age limit for the pill Plan B. Its to prevent the fertilization of the egg inside the females womb.
Now the discussion question was raised as to having an age limit on young people alowed to purchase this over the counter drug or should it be open to anyone in need of it....this is where I played devils advocate.

We as a society have put a stigma on young people or people in general who decide to terminate their pregnacies at young ages due to it being an accidental development, but do u really think a child should be born to a parent who doesn't want it or better yet not ready to let go their childhood. Yes they were grown enough to lie down and perform adult duties yet at the same time when they have these children they cannot raise aren't we the tax payers paying for them eventually.

This sparked an interest inside of me to ask people surrounding me what they thought of the following question thrown out by a news anchor and these were the reactions.....

1. No person should be able to kill regardless of age

2. There shouldn't be an age limit since there isn't an age limit to have sex.

3. Accidents happen..lighten up

4. Better they do what they need to do b4 them and the child suffer in the long run

5. There should be an age limit...it would help the parents become more involved in their childs life.

6. If they don't make it legal they will find other ways to do what is necessary

7. Its far more better then scraping the fetus out

8. I couldn't imagine allowing my young teen the choice of wanting to use the pill as a backup agent because she slipped up and didn't use protection

9. Keep it the way it is now not everyone will have to use it anyway

10. I'm all for it..it saves money in my pockets in the longrun.

Now I'm sure everyone read the question and saw that I was asking about there being an age limit on an abortion pill...so yes some of these answers are ridiculous yet at the same time can u blame them? What age is the proper age to kill a person whether they are an adult or something as small as a fetus?

For some reason when it rains out my mood seems to sadden and get gloomy just like the clouds. Been awake for some time now yet I haven't left the bed for some odd reason we have become one since rain drops fell lastnight.

So now I'm awaiting to start the new job and nervousness has set in as if I am goin to be moving to a new state and begin a new life. Guess its because of it being a new enviornment and consumers as well as staff that I will have to adjust to as well. Hopefully everything will go good, but until further notice...stay tuned!

So the new girl is upset wit me cuz she sick and I didn't send well wishes. How was I suppose to know ur sick when we last spoke and had an argument...I'm not one to give in and apologize first so umm yea. Anywho she felt some way for 2 days then out the blue sends a yahoo message saying she luv me..da fuck???

So yea the brain is frying tryin to figure out females and their crazy ways...not sure if we just don't blend or am I really the crazy one. Not sure but maybe its God tryin to tell me leave these girls alone and follow a straight and narrow path...lol...so until then I will be on my Shug Avery iish awaiting a new message from Da Boss!!

This seems to be the only way I seem to calm down now a days...by writing how I feel. So I apologize if u don't understand what I'm writing, but this blog is for venting.

Baby momma drama
It seems as though the phone calls increase and drama escalates when I tend to hush voice and lower temper. Bitches assume because they have a child wit the dick I claim they got claims on the nigga holdin me down...ARE YOU SERIOUS!! Jus cuz u two have a kid don't mean u can call and do dumb shit just because...like grow the fuck up already bitch...this makes me hate hate hate all babymommas to the point I wanna put they asses in concencration camps and burn them the fuck alive this is how much hate this broad is stirring inside of me.

I know its bad to feel this way yet at the same time I do and sooner or later I'm gonna either blow up or just walk away from everything we have together...love or not. Yeah its easier said then done, but I'd rather live a dramaless life then one with headache and pain cuz of a fucking accident.

So for now I will be draw a different blueprint until further notice on a happier future for myself...WITHOUT BABYMOMMA DRAMA!!!!!

So the ex hit me today on some happy go lucky shit bout her finding a new girl...send my well wishes yet got dragged into an arguement like always.

How is it that when I lie people run wit it and hearts r full of smiles yet whe I tell the truth they get screw faced and spew hatred from lips?

It kills me how that happens, but shit happens right?

So yeah I've come to terms with erasing everyone from my life and digging up my bubble from the past cuz this building friendships and learning to let people in isn't working so as of today I'm gonna stick to myself....(oh and the mexican smuggler)*wink*.

so long world of helping, listening or caring and welcome to my new world of solitude and looking out for only me!

Ok so ole girl got me feeling some way bout her...funny thing is I was feeling her friend first. Let me start from the beginning......

I met Jada through a network party and we clicked chit chatted a bit and went out for drinks once....sparks were flickering, but nothing popped off so it went on the back burner....in the process of getting to know her, her girlfriend (that came wit us for drinks) made it clear she wanted to see what could happen and here we r now.

So she got these feelings floating inside body making giddy smiles and nervousness set in when I hear her voice or receive a text from her. Now I know I shouldn't be on ole girl like this cuz I was feelin her friend, but shorty right there is a 10!!

Today she confessed the unthinkable and damn near made me crash my car....LOVE....she said she LOVE ME??

I asked her how and her response was "Your Beautiful Ma, inside and out. I hear your voice and feel completely at peace knowing I have u in my life as a friend or maybe more".

Now if that don't make me feel good...don't know what else will. So yeah feelings are def there after that confession yet knowing me ill keep mouth closed til further notice.

Ok so this is the 2nd time Im writing this thing and am pissed while I write this so if some words are misspelled who cares >:-(.

Anywho my ex wants me to fuck her and Im soo down wit doing that only problem is my inner conscience is telling me that its not a good idea for reasons I wish not to discuss right now, but it all boils down to why we broke up. I dont wanna go down that road again in having to always be the nice guy once things go bad between us then its fine and dandy and smiley faces until I decide to stop biting tongue and say whats on my mind...its like tiptoeing on glass with her and wit that Im not wit anymore so yeah I guess it wont be happening unless she catches me drunk and the goose gets me loose.

So Im having a problem pertaining to my man and him keeping in contact with ex's...is it me or are ex's labeled that for a reason because something happened between the two of you to where it made you break up...and from what I know they were on bad terms when they broke up so explain to me how/why you wanna be friends now. Usually I dont get upset or jelly cuz thats just not my oersonality when it comes to relationships, but this is making blood boil and curdle and its not a good thing...so for now I'll just lay low and see where this new found friendship goes and if it gets to peachy for me then heads will roll in this bitch and feelings will mos def get stomped on wit timbs...lol

What kills me is the fact that he didnt want me to be friends with my ex and we didnt break up on bad terms..he moved! Yet you wanna talk to ya ex like aint nothing happened when she cheated on you for ya boy....SERIOUSLY!. Yeah but like I said we shall see how far this friendship goes and the reason for it....(breath)

(This was supposed to be my post for last night so dont pay attention if I post again tonight)

Its been 90 days 20 hours and 49 minutes since I broke up with a woman with whom I've lusted. We broke up on New Years Eve and haven't seen or been together since then. Not sure if I'm upset or happy about it but I can sure say its been a lot more peaceful since the break-up.

Someone asked me if it was because we stopped loving each other why we broke up and I tols them "No..it was because we loved each other to much".....Crazy right?

Anywho she's dues to move here before summer and I wonder if we will hook up(fuk) again or just remain friends...because believe it or not I miss that :-P...lol!

So the big day is in May and we shall see what happens then so stayed tune to see what goes on between her and I (oh and him)..lol!!!

My year has started off on a good foot so far. Lost love and let go of lots of friends, yet my heart is at peace. Like Lauryn Hill said when it hurts so bad why does it feel so good, and I've come to the conclusion that its good for you. The weekend has come here like w whirlwind and I will be getting much needed rest as well as writing for the next 2 days so expect some things round here to be ruffeled as well as feelings to be splattered all over here but that will be yet another thing to discuss after the pieces have been done. Theres plenty more to write but guess ill get back to it once work here is done.